What I wish I knew before giving birth?

                             The most magical day of my life was when I gave birth!

I wish someone told me the reality of what actually happens after giving birth. Everyone always shows the ‘joyous’ side of having a newborn. So in my mind, I was prepared for a little one in the sense that I couldn’t wait to hold her, feed her and play with her. But I wasn’t ready for the reality that I had no idea of.

I was in labor for 36 hours. I went into labor Friday night, and she didn’t come out till Sunday afternoon. It was very exhausting. But once she was out, that feeling of seeing my baby and hearing her cry just melted my heart. I was in tears, and I didn’t feel pain anymore. They placed her on my chest, and there she lay quietly, sleeping away.

I thought newborns sleep for hours, so I was like, okay, it is going to be pretty darn easy to look after one. My dumb self read an online article back in school that said, “newborns sleep more than 16 hours a day.” Now they never specified that those 16 hours are broken into increments of 2 hours. I found out the hard way when I brought her back home ( she was in NICU, so I didn’t get to sleep with her through the night in the hospital).

I remember the first night my eyes were heavy with sleep, and it had only been 45 minutes, and she was up screaming. So I changed her, fed her, and put her back to sleep. She woke up not even an hour later and, I thought she was probably feeling hot or just uncomfortable. The whole night went that way and, the next morning, my husband and I took her to the pediatrician because we thought she wasn’t feeling well. That’s when the doctor broke out the news to me that they will wake up every hour to two hours to feed. I was confused, so I asked, “don’t they sleep for 16 hours?” The doctor wanted to crack up, but he was like, “yes, a TOTAL of 16 hours in 24 hours.” And that’s when it clicked in my dumb head.

I had to accept the fact that I wasn’t going to get enough sleep anymore. And, because of my hormones being messed up, I was feeling the baby blues, and the sleeplessness was making it worse. At times I felt like I was such a bad mom and didn’t deserve to be one. I would cry and cry for no reason sometimes but, then one day, my cousin, who gave birth four months before me, texted to check on me. After opening up about how I was feeling, she explained that she went through the same thing, and what I was experiencing was all normal. I have never felt so much at ease because it was such a relief to know that I wasn’t the only one going through the baby blues. And, she even told me it gets better once the hormones settle down in about 4-6 weeks after birth. Guess what? She was right. I have never enjoyed anything as much as I enjoy motherhood. I know many of you can relate.

Ever since then, I have always been reaching out to new moms and trying to talk to them. Just by saying, “Hey, I went through exactly what you’re going through and trust me, it gets so much better”- will completely change their perspective of motherhood. So if you’re a new mom, feel free to leave a comment or shoot me an email! I’m here for you!

How I beat procrastination…

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When we get thrown off schedule, we tend to procrastinate quite a lot. I used to waste so much time procrastinating, and sometimes I couldn’t control it. There were days where I could not convince myself to keep going. I would either be on my phone scrolling through my social media or watching something either on YouTube or Netflix. And after I was done, I would regret wasting so much time, but then time and time again, my habits didn’t change. With the whole quarantine, my procrastination has been even worse. So I told myself that if I don’t start the change today, nothing will ever happen. No one will do it for me.

What helped me most is keeping a planner and a journal. I purchased them separately, but I would prefer having a planner that has more writing space so I could document mini journals in it. Having a daily planner has been so helpful, and each time I stick with my plan, I reward myself with a fancy sticker to put on my planner. I try to affirm my action by writing them down in my journal and how I felt after completing the task on time. Every time I had the chance to procrastinate, I would open my journal and re-read what I had done and how amazing it felt. That is how I kept myself motivated. But, I am not going to lie; there were times when I did procrastinate, but it wasn’t as bad as in the past when I didn’t own a planner or a journal.

Planning on getting this planner for Fall 2020

Comment down below on how you use your planner or your journal. I would love to hear from you! ♣                                                                      

Back to school after having kids

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Is it possible? Yes. Is it easy? No.

Whatever route we decide to take in life is never going to be easy. Great things don’t come easy, and we all know it. But things become a little more challenging when there are kids involved. A mother would understand another mother because they have experienced similar situations.

I decided to go back to school after having my second child. He was less than 3 months old when I thought of giving it a chance. I had my mother visiting me, and so she would babysit my son, which made it a lot easier because I didn’t have to worry about him when I was in college. I started by taking one summer class to see if I can handle it. I went to class four days a week from 11 am to 2 pm, and I enjoyed every moment of it. I missed being in a classroom setting and learning. I did really well and ended up with an A in that class. That boosted my self-confidence and right after I found myself registering for the fall session.

I took two prerequisite classes for nursing, which were required for the application process. I did not want to overwhelm myself, and I did not register for other general education classes. My focus was to get into nursing school first, so I took Anatomy and Physiology 1 and Introduction to Chemistry. I took evening classes for the fall semester from 6 pm to 9 pm. I would take care of my children and finish up all the housework in the morning, and once my husband came home from work around 5:30 pm, I would leave for class. The schedule worked out well. I ended up getting A’s in both classes. That’s when I knew that I could do it!

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Follow me for more interesting posts on my journey as a nursing student. I will be putting up posts on how I plan my schedules, how I study with active little ones around, how I am paying for school without taking out loans while being unemployed at the same time, and more…….