I can’t believe I passed my NCLEX. I came out of the exam feeling like I failed and I didn’t know anything. I had to wait 48 hours for my unofficial results to be posted. Those 48 hours were filled with anxiety. They were the most difficult 48 hours of my life. In fact, waiting for the results was actually worse than taking the exam itself.
My last day of classes was August 12th and I registered for the NCLEX a week before and applied for my license a month before just to get the process going. I had to call the nursing board to expedite my ATT so I could schedule my NCLEX. I received my ATT 24 hours after I spoke to the operator. I initially gave myself around 10 days to prepare so I scheduled my exam for the 31st of August. But I acted on impulse and I just wanted to get it over with so I ended up rescheduling to 24th of August. I immersed myself into the books and test banks for three days and felt somewhat ready to take the exam.
The day of the exam, I arrived 40 minutes early to give myself some time to navigate my test anxiety. I made sure I was hydrated and used the bathroom. Took a few deep breaths and pictured myself getting that ‘pass’ on the results. I thought my test would end at 75 questions, but it did not. It went up all the way to 133 and stopped. The odd number freaked me out. I have always heard of people’s exam stopping at 75 or 145. I left the exam room feeling completely defeated.
I tried the Pearson Vue trick that people talk about online and decided to give it a try. I did get the good pop up but even then I felt like I am probably that 1% that will receive a fail with a good pop up. I came back home and tried the trick a couple of more times but that was not reassuring at all. I had no other choice but to wait the whole 48 hours after the exam.
Then the day arrived and I was so nervous to login and purchase my unofficial results. Once I logged in and I saw that my results were up, I was dreading to see a fail while making the payment of $7 something. I closed my eyes as soon and I pressed ‘submit order’. Then I peaked with one eye and I read PASS. I jumped up in joy scaring my children. I couldn’t believe I passed. I kept spelling P-A-S-S out loud and asking my husband if it really meant pass or fail. I know I sounded like a crazy person.
Now, I can actually say that I am so relieved. I packed all my books away in my book shelf. I can finally take a deep breath and just breathe that fresh air in and out. I don’t have to worry about any more tests, exams, research papers, presentations, case studies, care plans, etc.
To new beginnings………..